The Fence

Today Kevin and I bought a fence.
A fence to protect Aidan from the dangers of Kevin's open pool.
We had a lot of discussions about this fence. We talked about/looked at drowning stats, talked about my worries about him drowning, (along with the 2 year old neighbor) and about how important this was for me.
He realized this this importance, and today we drove 1 hour from home to buy the fence, (50% less than if we bought it new!) which will be installed Tuesday.
Somehow I think this made us closer. This negotiating, this slow talking as we discuss all that needs to be discussed as we move in together. It amazes me. I am honored and so grateful to be a part of it.

Today on the way home, as I sat silent in the car, with the rolled up fences in the back of the truck, Kevin asked me what I was thinking. Funny-at that moment I was thinking how tired I was. How I could endure the long work day ahead. How much my neck hurt from sleeping the wrong way on a too-tall pillow the night before.

But really...I was relishing in the nearly imperceptible wonder of a man I love on my side, who understands enough about me and my mom-worry to help me get a gate to ensure my son's safety. Kevin hates to drive outside the South Bay. Kevin never asked for a lover with a kid, and he got me. Betsy Jennings with a 5 year old. My god do I love this man.
As we drove home I thought about Kevin slowly integtating all that I needed and wanted to be happy and secure in his home. I am so lucky and blown away at the simplicity and gloriousness at the decision to put up a gate, and how much it means to me and touches my heart.

Funny. but at the exact time he asked me what I was thinking, all I could say was "honey, I wish I was thinking something less mundane......I am tired, and my neck is killing me."

That it..
The mundane mixed with the joy and peace of progress.
Yes.